11.07.2008

Book Review: I Was A Really Good Mom Before I Had Kids

One of my BF's from Chi, Addie and Mommies Blog, wrote this book review and I felt like I really had to share it with you. This is going to be my next read for sure! If your a mom...I am sure you will agree that this book is a must have! Here is what she wrote:

Do you ever have nights where you just plop down on the couch feeling totally exhausted and wonder what the hell you did all day? The dishes are still in the sink, the highchair still needs to be wiped down, there is a pile of laundry in the hallway and you are still in the outfit you went to bed in the night before. I know Eric must secretly wonder the same thing when he comes home from work and it looks I didn't do anything all day. I always try to justify myself by explaining that I paid bills, went grocery shopping, cleaned out the fridge, graded a few papers while Addie was napping, etc. I don't know why I feel the need to explain myself because Eric never judges me. He thanks me all the time for taking such good care of him and Addie. And deep down I know he means it. But there are times when I have had a long day and he will say something like "do I have any clean work pants?" It's a simple question and I should just answer him by saying "no...I didn't get to washing them today." But instead, I start getting defensive by listing off my daily tasks, which usually leads to a reminder about how I quit my job to take care of our baby. Once I say anything about being a SAHM, his response is usually "lots of moms would kill to be able to stay home with their children." And he is absolutely right. I am so lucky to have the opportunity to be home with Addie every day. I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. But I have to admit...being a SAHM mom isn't what I thought it would be. And honestly...neither is motherhood.

Now don't get me wrong. Motherhood is SO much better than I could have ever imagined. I didn't know it was possible to love someone so much. There are little moments every day where Addie will do something adorable like crawl to me so that I can pick her up and when I do, she will wrap her little arms around my neck and press her face against mine. Moments like this make me close my eyes and thank God for this little peanut. And I know other moms can relate to these precious moments because moms are always willing to talk about the happy stuff. We all sit around telling these cute little stories and then with a collective "Awww" we move on to the next reason motherhood is so awesome. But late at night, when the babies are asleep and we are on the phone with our best friend...the truth tends to come out. Motherhood isn't always as rewarding or joyful as we like to say it is. Sometimes it is exhausting, overwhelming, stressful, confusing....I think you get my point. And when you are done letting out your feelings, you wonder...do other moms feel this way? The answer is...hell yes they do! Trisha Ashworth and Amy Nobile's book "I Was A Really Good Mom Before I had Kids: Reinventing Modern Motherhood" is the result of an afternoon conversation that led them to the same question. And what they found is that ALL moms, at least to some extent, share a lot of the same feelings about motherhood. We all love being mothers, we just hate doing it.

"This is an amazingly honest thing to say--I love being a mom; I just hate doing it. And it's all the more amazing because it resonates with so many of us. Why? We love our children, and we love being their mothers, but sometimes we just hate doing "it" because "it," as we have defined it, is an impossible job. We're not talking about the indignities of wiping up runny noses or runny diarrhea--we expected as much. We are talking about the crushing exhaustion, gerbil-on-a-flywheel feeling of every day. We're talking about the failure we feel when we can't bring ourselves to make a Halloween costume, even though that very day we rushed out of work early to make it to a Mommy & Me music class. We're talking about the sinking feeling we have when we finally get into bed at night, knowing that we've failed to perform competently (according to ourselves) on yet another day. Those parentheses are very important: we're labeling our own selves failures."

Now I don't want to make the book sound like it is all gloom and doom. It is SO not that kind of a book. It is just honest, and sometimes honesty can be gloom and doom. The authors realize this too and that is one of the reasons they decide to write this book.

"The hope is that we'll raise great kids and be happy doing it. And that means talking about the good and bad sides of motherhood. Because if we can talk honestly, perhaps we can lose the notion that we can and should do it all. And if we can lose that notion, then perhaps we can get a grip on our insane expectations. And if we can get a grip on our insane expectations, perhaps we can stop judging ourselves and other moms, learn to say no when we need to, embrace our daily lives, nurture ourselves and our husbands, and maybe, just maybe, relax and find peace. The ideal is to be true to ourselves, to make conscious choices based on our own value systems (and not others' expectations of us), and to live our lives in ways that serve our own best interests and those of our families. Only then can we begin to love motherhood as much as we love our children."

I don't want to write anymore about the book because it is so much better to just read it for yourself. I wouldn't exactly classify the book as "self help" because that label has such a negative connotation. But honestly...I think the book has helped me. It helped me realize that I don't have to be everything to everybody every day. I don't have to stress about a dirty pile of laundry and I don't have to feel guilty if I decide to order a pizza instead of cooking a wholesome meal one night. So if you are a mom looking for a little self help...or even just a good laugh...this book is for you! And if you decide to read it...I would love to know what you think :-)


Thanks Jen for the recommendation!

3 comments:

Ginette said...

Thank you for sharing! Crazy how we can be our worst critics sometimes...

Jen said...

Thanks for the shout out honey! I hope you enjoy this book...I know I did! I have also had about 3 friends read it and e-mail me that it is the best thing they have read in a while. Let me know what you think!

Amy Nobile said...

Hi ladies...what an honor to hear such great feedback. We are hoping you'll like our next one, out in April -- "I'd Trade My Husband for a Housekeeper: Loving Your Marriage After the Baby Carriage."

Cheers!

Amy Nobile & Trisha Ashworth, co-authors
"I Was A Really Good Mom Before I Had Kids"